There had been casual talk about moving from Staghelm, a Dallas based server (average Dalaran ping for me 350) to an LA based server where the ping would be a lot lower. Every time it came up, usually over drinks, I always said I'd be willing to go if everyone wanted to go.
When the discussion became more serious & a few of us started trying out LA servers, I made it a point to mention it to people. Everyone I mentioned it to said they would move. I even called a guildie, who had been mostly absent for several months, to personally discuss the talk about moving with him, & he was amenable. At least, if a response of "Ok, let me know then" is considered amenable, which at the time I took it to be.
The 3 or 4 of us who were testing out ping had narrowed it down to 2 servers, & then sat on it for a week. Every day someone asked which server we were going to move to, but no one would take the plunge & choose. Everyone was waiting for someone else to do it. Finally when one person said he would like to know which server to start leveling his rogue alt on, I sent out an email to everyone, asking for a vote.
It was at the END of the vote that a couple of people, the person I had called on the phone & his friend who originally voted for a server, announced they would not be moving. But it turned out to be more than just a couple of people; hardly anyone moved: from IHS, only 7. People who said they would move seemed to just forget what they had said.
I thought we were all going, & I did my best to communicate with people about what I pictured to be a good thing, & if there had been even some discussion about not wanting to move, I would have stopped to rethink this, because I would choose my friends over better ping.
People talk so much bullshit. They say, "Yeah, I will" without meaning it. I used to do that. At some point I made a conscious effort to not be full of shit. So I know how to say "no" just as easily as "yes." Whatever it is, I tell the truth. If I fuck up, I say something about it. I don't skulk around & pretend nothing happened.
I know that it's unfair of me to expect that from other people. Apparently for most people this is really fucking hard. Today someone blatantly lied to me about his friend's reason for not transferring. I didn't point it out. Maybe his friend lied to him. It doesn't matter. I don't care.
So now I'm just alone all the time. When I log into WoW, most of the time it's pretty much just me. It's like Bloodscalp again, except this time instead of everyone leaving it's because people SAID they would meet me there & then they just let me go. It's like that time in 9th grade when my POS girlfriends (Heidi Tengan, Shelby Shigaki - yeah FUCK YOU bitches) thought it would be funny to tell me to meet them outside the football game at 5:30 & instead met at 5:15 & went inside without me. And I waited, & waited, & waited, because I would never have thought they would have lied about it.
I know. I expect too much of other people; I can't help it. I wish I could stop. I'm so sick of being let down, but the only way to stop is to just not have friends any more. Although that's starting to look like it wouldn't be much lonelier than things already are.
Loyalty. Honesty. Kindness. Conscientiousness. WoW is just a game. You don't expect those things from a game.
